Giving Up My Singlehood

In about a month, I will be saying my vows and getting married.

I knew that getting married would be a big deal - after all, I've been dreaming about finding my "One" for many, many years - so of course I knew the act of getting married would be an exciting and joyous occasion but it has also been a time of saying goodbye for me.

In just about a month now, I will be saying goodbye to my single life.

I will be giving up my singlehood.

Now this is a good thing, a joyous event. To be with my "One" and married has been something I've wanted for a long time, but still - as the day gets closer, I find it necessary to do some clearing.

Clearing of some old thoughts, of some old behaviors, and a re-working of sorts of who I am.

In just about a month now, I will be accepting a new identity.
I will be changing my name.
I will be having a man by my side.
I will be having a partner... forever.

This is a big deal.
For years, many years.... my whole life... has been about men.

Picking up men.
Looking for men.
Stressing about men.
Flirting with men.
Thinking about men.
Worrying about men.
Strategizing about men.
Trying out different men.

The frustration... the sadness... the disappointment. All of that.

As well as the variety.... the hunt... the quest.... the excitement.

Although most of the time I was upset about my love life, I now realize there was fun and excitement there too.

Who will I end up with?
What will he look like?
How will he treat me?
How will he look at me?

When will I meet him?
How will I meet him?

Man, I hated it. The uncertainty of being single.

And now, with so many bright and shiny things in front of me, I find myself going through waves of emotion - from excitement... to sadness.

I know these emotions are normal.
I know there's nothing to fear with them.
I know that when one chapter in your life closes, with all the good things to come.... there is a time of mourning.

Sadness over saying goodbye.
Maybe fear of the unknown future.
Appreciation of what was.
Mourning over an old thing... life... way of being.

These last few weeks have been dedicated to getting myself ready for marriage.
Emotionally, mentally, spiritually.

Giving up my singlehood means there's a whole new life waiting for me of being a married woman.
It's a process... and I'm on my way.

On my way of getting there.... getting myself ready, to be married.

Wishing you the best in love,

Blaire Allison

Intuitive Heart Healer, The Love Guru

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